RanDawg (wasabiabi) wrote,

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It's not my fault, Bitch!

So I went to a first birthday party last night for the daughter of a close family friend. They are so close, in fact, that we consider each other family even though we are not blood related. We are kinda family. They are my cousins cousins from the other side of their family to be exact. We all grew up together though cause we are so close in age. Anyhoo, I had a fantastic time. I woke up at 6am yesterday cause I was chosen for an overtime shift at work and who can pass up $25/hour? Well, Jessica and I didn't get home from the party until about 2am. I must admit, it has been quite some time since I have been out that late. I never thought I would be saying this, but I don't see midnight too often anymore. It is one of the side effects of working full time and having to maintain a household I guess. Back to the topic though. We were all sitting around talking after the party was over about our jobs and whatnot. Susan and Carolyn, my kinda cousins, are both teachers. Susan teaches in high school and Carolyn teaches middle school. They were telling these stories about their students and the parents. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I am only 7 years removed from high school but from what I was hearing things have changed dramatically. You can blame the students to some extent or you can blame technology for some of the problems, but what the fuck is up with parents these days? NO one seems to want to take responsibility for anything anymore. It is never their fault or their kids fault. It is always someone else trying to bring them down. When did this all happen? Where the fuck was I when everyone decided to blame everyone else. Sometimes I feel like I am the only one that will admit that I fucked up. In my job I hear people all day talking about how something wasn't their fault and I am trying to screw them over. It is so refreshing when someone calls and the first words out of their mouth is "I fucked up man". I don't have children yet, I am definitley planning knocking my wife up and having her squeeze out a few kids as soon we can, but I feel sorry for my children already. The world they are going to grow up and live in is not going to be a good place. The only thing I can do is teach them good values and hope that those values can rub off on the people around them and the children they will eventually have. I have done some fucked up shit in my day but I at least take personal responsibility for all of it. All I can do is try to teach my children to do shit that is less fucked up than what I did.

The diet is going pretty good. I finished phase one of South Beach and decided to take a little different approach. I couldn't handle the total cut back in carbs. When you start craving things all the time it is hard to keep going without breaking down. I decided to really control my sugar intake, especially soda, and eat carbs but mostly the good ones. I also started the exercise program again and have gotten my energy back. I am not dead tired when I wake up in the morning anymore. I got 6 hours of sleep 2 nights in a row and I am fine today. I ended up losing about 8 pounds in the 2 weeks so I feel great about that. Slowly but surely I will get where I need to be.

So I volunteered to be deployed to a hurricane zone when one of those fuckers hits for work. I don't think I will be picked, but if I do it will be an unreal work experience and very helpful for my career. We'll see what happens with that. Work is going pretty good. I like my 10:30 - 7 shift so much better than that 9:00 - 5:30 shift I was working. The day seems to go by much faster. Best be off and up out for now, I need to surprise my lovely wife and do some cleaning before she gets home from work.
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